I've Been Sold Something I Can't Afford

and neither can you. If you can, I hate you. Kidding, but help me.

Things I've been sold and can't afford:

1. Study Abroad
2. Range Rover
3. Loft in Manhattan, or anything in Manhattan for that matter
4. Perfect Vision
5. Designer this, that, everything...wow that covers a lot for me.
6. Education. Sad.

my life

is a joke.

sometimes i truly feel failure is inevitable for me considering my circumstances. ok. maybe not complete failure but never the success i dream of.

i wonder if i never gave any effort to anything. what would my life become? what if i buy a plane ticket to a random country and just be homeless? is that how places aquire homeless people?

i found this article while researching something about tourism for a paper...
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2007/11/01/2007-11-01_some_tourists_choose_city_landmarks_for_-1.html

yes, i know its old, and i know its from the daily news but i thought it was interesting.

when i grow up

i want to be famous, i want to be a star, i want to have boobies.

no seriously. for my non-celebrity self its very hard to figure out what i want to do when i 'grow up.' i pretty much consider myself 'grown up' being that i'm 20 years old. even though i live with my parents and dont have too many bills to pay im pretty much self sufficient. i work. im in college. my dad still does my laundry though. lol.

im at the point where i need to decide what i wish to continue my education in. honestly, if i were a genius id just be a doctor. yes im in school for 10 plus years but if i were a genius that wouldnt be an issue, because id love school. however, im not a genius. so i have to pick a career from a pool that a lot of other ppl are swimming in. the average pool.

i cant start my own business because get real. im poor. lol.

i cant even think seriously about any career because honestly i dont see myself doing well in anything. i dont even see myself having the opportunity of a dream a job, etc. i know i sound negative and unmotivated but im just being realistic.

school will be over soon. not soon enough.

public affairs vs. journalism. either way im going to probably get high stress low pay. or boring low pay job.

Self-employed. right.

"Hi Sara this is P**** ******* calling from wachovia human resources Sara i just wanted to get back to you i know you met with rose yesterday but there were about oh she met with quite a few oh about 4 people yesterday so she did go with a different candidate please know that i do have your resume i will be sending you an application i have just there's been a couple things going on i just have not got to that just yet but you will get an application because i would like to get some of your additional information on file and if anything else should present itself I'd be more than happy to call you Sara I really enjoyed my time with you. so um if at some point you want to give me a call maybe around the end of the summer please do so my phone number again is xxx-xxx-xxxx"

I didn't get the job as a receptionist at wachovia. hm. let me evaluate myself. I'm taking this very hard because its the first job I didn't get. seriously, there were only 4 other people. what was my competition? to really assess why I didn't get the position I will need to review the job description/post.

"Employer:
Wachovia Corporation [view profile]
Division:
Human Resources

Title:
Receptionist

Description:
Reports to New York Office Services Manager. Responsibilities include, but are not limited to: Answer main switchboard, greet and provide all visitors direction to their destination, sort incoming mail, assist in expense reimbursement processing using expense reporting system, schedule messenger service pickup and delivery when requested, schedule car service for business units when requested, partnership with administrative team for full coverage, research employees on InfoDesk when inquiries are receive and set up meetings in conference rooms when requested, including, but not limited to: order catering for conference meetings when requested, clean conference rooms after meetings to include removal of food, cleaning tables and straighten chairs, and oversee videoconferencing to include contact vendor, technology or facilities for troubleshooting and other duties as assigned.REQUIREMENTS: Prefer 2+ years working place experience with font desk exposure, high school degree, college a plus, excellent customer service focus, work well without direct supervision, team player, must be able to prioritize and multitask, proficiency in Outlook, Word, and Excel, high level communication skills with all levels of people, not intimidated by persons with authority. Schedule varies.

Location:
Location
City
New York
State
New York
Country
United States

Position Type:
Temporary/Seasonal

Salary Level:
16.00 per hour

Job Function:
Administrative

Desired Start Date:
July 15, 2008

Duration:
on going

Approximate Hours Per Week:
varies"
*copied from Baruch's Starr Search Site

Ok. To make this simple I'm just going to compare myself to the "requirements".

• 2+ years working place experience with front desk exposure.

I functioned as a receptionist with JP Morgan, not two years but a few months during an internship. really. its not hard to smile and transfer phone calls. anyone who needs 2 years to perfect that position...lets not even go there.

• high school degree

class of 2006. Murry Bergtraum H.S.

• college a plus

Baruch College Student.

• customer service focus

Why yes, I do strive to please wachovias clientele. I love problem solving.

• work well without direct supervision

Yes, I am a self starter. I wouldn't slack off and play solitaire at the computer if I didn't have anything to do. I'd start cleaning, organizing, or doing anything else to keep myself busy.

• team player

Yes. I am a team player with quite the can-do attitude. I spent a year playing softball, have completed numerous group projects in school, in my current position we all work together to figure out how to improve our program.

• able to prioritize and multitask

My life consist of prioritizing and multitasking.

• proficiency in MS office

Yes, I studied all of the MS office applications in high school. I am certified in MS excel by Microsoft Office.

• high level of communication skills

Yes.

• not intimidated by persons with authority

Spoken in front of large groups. Including city council.

Ok. Did I miss anything? Oh yes. I have a professional appearance. Which I didn't get from your employees. Open toed shoes, sleeveless shirts, not pretty? ok I was kidding about that last part.

sorry about everything being lowercase. and grammatical errors. i don't have time to consume myself with that because i'm job hunting.

I think I might be over exagerating about the entire thing. but it is the first job that I've interviewed for and didn't get. i want to take it as a sign of better things to come but i really wanted this because its such a simple position that i know i would do well in. and the whole 'i really enjoyed you...call me at the end of the summer' really peeves me. if you really liked me why didn't you convince your supervisor that i was a better candidate? why would i call you at the end of the summer? i need work now. the second interviewer was more concerned with the new CEO's announcement that my qualifications for the position.

Furthermore, maybe someone was better qualified. the only thing i can think of is someone who has had a consistent position as a receptionist. but i would assume that you can get a better position if you have more experience.

In all, its not hard to be a receptionist. anyone, well almost anyone, can do it. smiling, transfering calls, pressing open door. WOW. CHALLENGING.

fin.

Get Smart

pretty funny.

2 more weeks of summer school!

and of course my left wisdom tooth picks the perfect time to try and break through my gums. I really cant afford to go to the dentist and miss school to pull a tooth out...it took me a whole week to recover when I got my right side pulled.

Summer Summer Summertime

Well, I'm happy.

how cute is this....

HI HATER HI HATER HI HATER!

ok. had to get that out of my system. lol. I'm obsessed with that song.

So yeah. First heat wave is in--coincendentally enough on Puerto Rican pride weekend...I'm telling you its in result of some old ladys buheria(i def didnt spell that correctly but you get me right? lol.)

anywho, felt like updatin a bit...I finally got the dress from apparel that I wanted...in purple...possibly get another color later in the summer...wanna feel this one out after a few wears lol.

ugh

the semester is winding down. but the work is piling up. i cant wait until these last two weeks are over with. then i can live.

I need these

how cute is the lace detailing.

dissapointed

i was so excited to get this. i tried it on. and it was weak. 100% polyester. why? whyyyyyy?

NEXT.

a few things i think i NEED lol

ive wanted these for a while but i havent purchased them because im consistently broke lol. and i know theyll probably always be available for purchase.



american apparel...i LOVE the buttons on the side. cute for summer. when i dont feel like putting on hot denim. royal blue or heather grey for day. black for night.



yeah. i know im 'Oding' lol. but i love this vehicle. why cant someone i know hit the lotto and buy it for me?



dont ask me where i would go in these. cause i dont know. but i love them lol.


ok i could go somewhere in these though. did u peep the heart on the strap though? cute.

ok. im gonna stop now cause im just annoying myself lol.

Rent

so i just came home from broadway and dinner.

i saw rent. im dissaointed. i never saw the movie but ive heard quite a few ppl rave about it so ive been super excited to see it live on broadway.

they fell short. i just wasnt feeling it. idk. i think i had high expectations and i just ended up dissapointing myself as usual.

ON A BETTER NOTE. i went to red lobster...havent been there in yeeeeears. matter fact since marselles like 16th bday i think. i was traumatized by the horrendous service we recieved that day and i always told myself i would never go back. never say never. i saw that it looked empty so we went in.

the food was deeeeeeeeeeeeeelish! we had the buffalo shrimp to start--one of my new favorite foods lol. and then i had shrimp skewers in lobster sauce SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. and my dad had lobstertail with coconut shrmip and lobster mash. ultra deeelish.

thats all.

ps=im sure this is filled with typos and other grammatical errors but im relaly tired and im laying down typing this. excuse me. lol.

blah

im feeling lame.

my skin is awful. another way college is ruining my life. 19 years amazing skin. stress from college, now i look like a fuccing creature.

not only that but i think im slowly gaining weight because i keep eating, cause i feel like thats the only way i can stay up through studying lol. its like i wont even be hungry and i think 'hmm i want some chips' lol. today for example, its 4 43 and ive had like 20832 calories lol. 3 100 calorie packs-cause i cant eat just one-naked juice, shrimp and asparagus pasta, and tostitos lol, oh yeah and half an ice cream sandwich lmao.

watever. on another note. i really want to get my shit together but i have no drive to do well nemore. every since the start of this semester ive been gradually losing interest. ive always hated school but ive always been able to tolerate it. i hope i can tolerate it for 2-3 more years, cause i doubt im graduating on time. maybe i will but i dont want to put the pressure on and be dissapointed when i dont finish in time. i want to transfer, i want to do something i love for the rest of my life, i want to travel but i dont think thats going to happen. people are always asking me what i want to do and to be honest i really dont know. i mean my ultimate fantasy is to be a pilot, doctor or veterinarian but thats never going to happen because i cant afford it and if i was intelligent enough id have the grades for full scholarships.

on a happier note, i think im kinda excited to take my summer classes cause its only a month and ill be getting the same credit that ill work for in 3/4 months! lol. oh. this video made me laugh...for some reason i dont remember seeing it when it first came out.

and I LOVE THIS SONG! LOL



CIAO!

Miley Cirus

go away.

******courtesy of http://www.perezhilton.com/ i couldnt find the normal picture of her so its perez's version lol.

for real though?

all this attention for an open back picture? what if it was a gown with an open back? same exposure, would she get the same reaction? media referring to it as 'nude?' um. not so much.

i guess we've run out of things to distract america with.

people. we are at war. wtf is miley cirus everywhere? go awaaaaaay! seriously, i want to choke slam her.

now if she was doing this.

OR THIS!

I'd get the big deal.

watevs.

seriously

im so over school.

ive been trying so hard to just shut up and do it but i cant. for what? i can graduate and not find a job? education is a business. sometimes i think you get what you pay for, and the fact that i go to a cuny school will come back to bite me in the form of an interview vs. an nyu or columbia grad.

whatever. just do it. i cant get a real job now. i wont get paid enough to live on my own. unless i want 2013804 roomates lol.

newho. im sad that i do not have tickets to kanyes glow in the dark tour. its been getting rave reviews. and though i think hes an arrogant ahole, i cant hate on his music. and i would love to see flashing lights in person. its probably sick. i think it wouldve been worth the 150$ ticks. watevs. maybe next time.

back to my psych project. which is causing me so much misery. i hate group work. i kind of am starting to hate ppl in general lol. i swear school is ruining my skin and i besta get at least a b, i want an a but thats impossible with some professors.

new

i wanted a blog that i could write personal stuff in. that wouldnt interfere with my aspirations of being hired as a restaurant reviewer. so here it is.